Real Friday.

Hi Y'all!!! 

Just me, here.

For the most part I try to make this blog of

mine bright and encouraging... if you know me at all you'll know that it is kind of

a big deal that I even have a blog to begin with. I like my privacy.  But I am learning that sometimes a girl needs to let her guard down and that is what I am attempting to do here at the heart of katy nicole.

 

After a recent discussion with one of my sweet friends

I realized I wanted to address something with y'all...

She asked me,

"Do you and your husband ever fight??!
Gosh, your life just seems so perfect compared to mine."

 

Y'all, I am sooo incredibly far from perfect.

 

You all must know that I am nothing more than a daughter in desperate need of her Father's 
love, grace and mercy .

 

I am beyond hopeless without Jesus. True story.

 

Every situation and circumstance I face can be summed up with one question...

where am I at with Jesus?!

 

I have found that the only way I can keep things bright

in my domain is through a life surrendered to Christ... ohhhhh how dim

things get around here when I don't have my Jesus and I try to do life on my own.

 

On good days... I set aside a specific time (quiet time) to get into His Word and soak in His Truth so that I can apply it to all areas of my life.  I hunger for His wisdom. I desire to know His principles and seek to challenge myself to love and live like He did. I have found that only through Him equipping me can I be the wife, mother, daughter, sister and friend that He has called me to be. There are no words to describe the rest that my soul finds in God alone...true contentment. These are the days that my husband kisses me good and can't get enough of me. I can't do life without Jesus. I have had a glimpse of a life without Him...and in my experience I have found it to be unfulfilling and dreary and discouraging and toxic.

 

On days that I try to do it all on my own... my husband hides from me (rightly so). I am grumpy. I snap at my husband. I fight with my people. I compare myself to everyone else. I am overly sensitive and critical. I resist forgiveness. I lack discipline. I lack grace for myself and others. I lack patience. I lack mercy.
I lack love.  I lack contentment.

I am constantly working to seek after Him more and more. It is challenging and I fail constantly. Thankfully, He hasn't given up on me yet!!!
 

 

to sum it all up...

 

the good in me and the good in my life has nothing to do with me...

it has everything to do with Him.

 

                                                                           -Katy Nicole