bday self-check.

This is how we do.

G rocks dinosaur pajamas at the park and I hide my makeupless face

behind my gigantic aviators. We think it's rather liberating.

Y'all should really give it a try ;)

My birthday is rapidly approaching.

I am typically not one to dread the fact that I can't outrun this whole process of aging.
I must say... I kinda like it. In fact, I much prefer my life now to any of my younger years. My now is what I call living. You could not pay me to go back to those other years...those years before Jay and Greyson.

 

I find myself eager to carry on with this life of mine.
Side note..I think my mama is smokin' hot so I am hoping that I take after the woman!
Birthday...bring it on.  I'm ready to see whatcha got for me next round.

This week I have found myself in a state of meditation. Really reflecting on this past year and the growth that has taken place within me and the growth that I am still in desperate need of. At times I feel like a little minnow swimming upstream amidst a sea of sharks. What God has put on my heart and what I am living for is so counter-cultural to what this world deems valuable and worthy... and sometimes that makes life hard.

But that's okay. We keep truckin' along.
Because at the end of the day I answer to Him.
Him alone.

My heart has been stretched this past year. I've seen my life and purpose through a new

set of eyes. I believe in the value and power in my role as a wife and mother like never before. Sure I have dreams for myself that don't necessarily involve child rearing and tending to my household.  I haven't lost sight of those dreams... if anything they are thriving with every dinner made and every bedtime story read.

As a wise mom wrote...

"And the dreams you set aside, will still be there. The ideas put on the back burner - not old and stale, but even more rich with flavor."

Yes, more rich indeed. Love this.
 

 

I quickly realized upon marrying Jay that I set the climate
for our home. And that my words and my actions become my family's
inner voice. There is great power in that. It can be quite scary and intimidating when I think about the difference I can make in my home. 

I cannot begin to make a difference in my realm without my life
being surrendered to Jesus.

Does that sound radical?!

I sure hope so.

I. don't. want. lukewarm.

My goal is not to strive for superwife or supermom
but to strive to be a woman of God... a woman in relationship with Jesus.
Radically in relationship with Jesus.
Seeking after Him daily through every trial and every triumph. In Him I find
the strength and joy to be an intentional wife and mama... In Him I experience
victory like never before.

I failed over and over again this past year.
I often lost sight of God's love and design for my life.

But thankfully I am married to a man who loves me through it all.
And a sweet son who steals my heart through it all.

And a God who NEVER let go of me through it all.

Because of Him I welcome each new day to come...

Because of Him I look forward to this next year!